Sunday, January 29, 2006

of marriages...

moms not home tonite.. she s sleeping at the marriage house.. now tht how i refer to mama's place..

things r in full force here now.. got a pedicure n manicure today.. feel so satisfied.. like a cat with a lottt of malai.. purrr
tomm i ll get my facial n clean up.. thn i ll smart all over my face..

also frm tomm we start decorating the house.. i ll b sleeping there frm tomm..we ll do the rangoli.. diyas.. flowers.. tissue.. gold n red ribbons.. n lace..

gold net hoops.. lights.. mehendi...bouquets..

so many things tht make a marriage.. n everything reminds of how i ll do it in chintan bhais marriage n mine.. sometimes i think oh i ll also get tht in my marraige.. n sometimes i think oh we wont do thigns like this in chintan bhai s marriage..

i know he wants a quiet calm marriage.. but i m hoping he wont deny me all the fun n laughter i m looking ahead too..

so many ppl ask me these days.. whn he ll get married.. n all i say is well.. we r not even looking yet.. actaully.. i m not even ready.. to start looking for a wife for him.. a wife..

another member.. someone to share his affections with.. i m already a wild cat whn his affections r shared amongst me n shekhar.. or me n hiral didi.. how will i manage a new member in the home.. a permanent member.. i m not ready for it like i said.. i still feel tht this is not the time.. we r stil kids.. wonder whn i ll grow out of tht delusion...

everyone his age.. around us is getting married or looking to get married..

lord knows how i ll b able to take his marriage.. i hope it wont b like everyone says.. tht whn someone gets married he/she leaves old affections n ties n relationships behind..

coz i ll fiercely fight for my brother.. the first person i fell in love with.. the only person who truly deserves my love.. or so i feel.. the only person of whom i can get exactly wht i can expect.. i m not saying tht i d expect the world out of him.. but i d expect .. n he d give me just wht id expect..

the only person who can handle me so well.... more thn anyone.. even if not completely.. thn more thn anybody..

love u bhai.. n i m so scared of ever losing u.. i could still bear it whn u took of for the states.. coz i knew we make a full circle.. but wht abt whn someone new enters ur life.. one more person who might have to b seperated frm me..

befor i wrote this blog.. i had something else in mind.. whn i started out i started with something different.. n whts come up is something entirely different.. i am of half a mind to erase this.. well mayb i ll just let it b..

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Dont worry initially it will be difficult to digest for u when u will have a bhabhi, but will get used to it after some time like i did for my sisters marriage. Also, when u will mature more with time and when u r loaded with more responsibilities.

Jtechie said...

It was my earlier comment with out name.

creative genius said...

hmm. pretty intersting blog...
so many emotions.. and u know the best relation in this world r of a brother and sister..
i know i cant even imagine the thing called marring right now...
u know there is nothing more than family for me.

Love you too...

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destiny said...

is there nething in teh world i hafnt spoken to my brother???its irretrievable...hes my life,,, n i literally mean it,, if thers one peron i can give my life 4 is my brother,,, i know how it is to let them see getting seperated 4om us,,, but life is that way,, n he needs the love of his life as well,,, and i know that i m gonna be the best frd to my bhabhi,,, though its lil tough to see them go away,, n getting bounded with responsibilities,,, sharing teh secrets...whn it was only mean 4 me...